I’m sorry…

I’m sorry. I haven’t updated since November. I had written a couple post but they got sent to the draft folder. I meant to publish them but never did and then I forgot.

Thanksgiving came and went. It was very different from other years just because I was pregnant. The normal things I like I didn’t. Which I was bummed about because I was looking forward to some good ole sweet potatoes my mom makes and they just weren’t the same. My sisters and I went out on Black Friday but because there was nothing that we “had” to have we waited and went out a little later. Which was actually very nice. But of course a lot of things were already gone. Not so nice part was that I felt horrible. Part of it was because I hadn’t eaten right away but the other part was because they make stores so darn warm. And this pregnant woman does not like the heat. Hot FLASHES!!!

December seemed like a lot happened but went by really fast. Which I was grateful for. We had Christmas with Chris’ mom’s side of the family and it was nice and chill. Kids got art stuff which they are still so excited about. We also go to meet #3 for the first time… well we got to see #3.
We also found out we were a week further than my original dates. Which I think I was the most excited about. That meant one less week of being sick. Everything looked good. I wouldn’t say that this pregnancy is hard just more difficult this time around. I thought it was hard having a 6 month old and being pregnant but I think I would do that 10 times over over having 2 toddlers. (Yes Caidan was 6 months when I got pregnant with Kloe…they are 13 months apart.)
Next was Christmas. And it was Christmas. I didn’t take any pictures because you can imagine 2 toddlers talking about Santa coming for over a month how excited they were when they woke up Christmas morning and saw all the presents under the tree. I think it took Caidan less than 5 minutes to unwrap all his 8 presents. I tried to get video but that wasn’t happening either. So I have the memories in my head of the way Caidan and Kloe looked as they opened each of their presents.
I was excited about Christmas but I was just as excited to get it over with. I had no energy as it was so to add all that excitement and hustle was just not for me this year.  But the kids enjoyed it and really that’s all that matters.
For the past 3 years we always go to my parents for New Years Eve/New Years to spend Christmas with them. It lets us be home and enjoy our family for Christmas but we still get to be with our family too. So New Years Eve we headed to my parents house. They live about 6 hours away. Which isn’t very far but far enough (i hate traveling.) The kids used to do really well but now they are just getting to the age where they are asking “are we there yet?” Caidan started saying “Gigi’s (that’s what they call my mom) house is too far away!” (but play that back in a whining voice.) It was a nice mini trip. And then we all came home and got sick with colds and sore throats it was GREAT!

So that’s where we are today getting over our sicknesses. It seemed that we were all sick at once which is great because its not a long drawn out thing but it sucks because we still have 2 kids to take care of. But we are slowly getting over it. And we are all going stir crazy… well I just think the kids are. I could care less to go any where for a long period of time. But one of these days I need to get them out to burn some energy. I just can’t wait to not feel like this anymore. Not knowing what I ever want to eat. Wanting to run to the bathroom and hug the toilet. Having no patience for my kids because I am hungry and need to eat. Having this cold/headache that makes all the above things 10 times worse. But I should only have a few more weeks. And if I can go through 10 weeks of what I just did a few more weeks doesn’t sound so long.

That really is all that has been going on. I will try to take more pictures of the kids but you know inside pictures aren’t always so great compared to the outside beautiful light. 🙂

Oh I forgot to mention that we got a new dog. Which is really funny because every time I get pregnant we get another dog. But she is a sweetie. Her name is Sugar and we saved her from outside. This was her the day we rescued her. We had found her outside that Thursday and been trying to catch her. We finally caught her Monday. She wouldn’t have lasted much longer. We took her to the vet that day because she was so tiny. They said she looked good but she was dehydrated. So they gave her some fluids and sent us home. We did contact the animal shelter and police station to see if any body had reported her missing but nothing. She is so loving and the kids love no I mean LOVE her. And she loves them the same. We are starting to see her personality come out and although we have some training to do with her she really is a great dog. She is just over a year and not knowing how long she had been outside (the vet said she was either treated bad or had been out for a while) so she kind of acts like a puppy. She wants to chew on EVERY THING. But we are working on one thing at a time and potty training her is most important at this point. 🙂 I have to say that she looks really bad in that picture compared to what she looks like now. Now she looks like she is taken care of. 🙂

Let the vomiting begin

I’m joking or am I? I’m not sure… the verdict it still out on that one.

On another note I am STOKED!!!! STOKED I SAY!!!! I couldn’t be more happier. Caidan and Kloe were never planned so when I found out I was pregnant it always took me awhile to get excited about it but not this time! Although I was shocked last night after taking the test because I was 100% sure I wasn’t. But I am we are!!!

I think about all the ways I could be over whelmed with the idea of having 3 kids soon… but then I think about how AMAZING it is going to be having 3 kids!

I never really thought I wanted to have a big family… but now I can’t see it any other way. My two children are great right now. But I can’t wait to see them all grow up and have each other all the time.

Here is how I told our parents….

Except they all missed it!!! It was really funny… but they were ALL excited!!!!

#3 will be here in the summer! Just what I was hoping for! (only because either sex I have the clothes for!) 🙂

Clueless

I hate not knowing what to do as a parent. I hate yelling at my kids because I am so frustrated with them. I hate that parenting is always a guessing game.

Honestly I don’t even know if its them today or if its me being hormonal! I want to say both because right now I don’t want to feel like a horrible parent.

I love my kids but man you know those days when you just want to check out as a parent… Yea I am there right now! I’m struggling right now because I don’t even know how to explain to Caidan what he just did. See he wrapped an ace bandage around Kloe’s neck and was pulling her. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But how to I explain to Caidan that what he was doing could have hurt her BADLY! (actually that’s exactly what I said to him!) But how do I make him understand that.

I am so scared that he is going to grow up so violent! He is not the most gentleness of a child.  About a month ago he pulled Kloe out of the play house and dislocated her elbow. Yes he’s 3yo 28lbs and pulled a 2yo 25lb out of the play house and dislocated her arm! I was so mad at him… so so so mad! I wanted her to come home with something on her arm so maybe he would understand that what he did really hurt her… but she came home with nothing on. He did apologize to her when we got home and asked her if her arm was better… but I just don’t know how to get him to understand!

I did just hear him come out of his room and say “Sorry Sissy I won’t wrap that around you anymore.” (Is that what I should look for does he get it or not!)

I’m so clueless!

Christmas is coming!

Christmas is coming in 93 days! Sounds like a long time but I guarantee it will FLY by! This year I am getting a head start on my Christmas Cards. I normally wait till last minute and order them and never send them out… yep that’s ME! But this year is gonna be different!

I have been searching and looking through Christmas card designs and found the ONE! You know the ONE! The one that I love! From Shutterfly!Obviously that isn’t my family…but that is the card! I LOVES IT! Its simple yet traditional… and it doesn’t say anything about “Happy Holiday’s” or “Merry Christmas” or “HO HO HO!” not that any of those things are bad but I have always wanted a card that doesn’t say that. I am so excited! The best part is you could all have that one too… 🙂 Or you could just pick a different one since Shutterfly has over 700 Christmas cards.

And if you love to send out cards at every holiday… see that wouldn’t be me since well I am bad sending out cards… but you could send out Thanksgiving cards that they have.

And another GREAT thing… Shutterfly is offering 20% off all Holiday cards.

So go search, find your card, order it and mail it soon or you could be like me and wait till last minute but I don’t recommend that! 🙂

 

 

Happy Birthday Sara

This past weekend I got to spend with my sister/sisters! 🙂 It was my baby sisters 22nd birthday. (are they really baby sister when they are 22?) Anyhow I’ll admit I was nervous. She had planned to spend Friday night out at a bar with her friends for her birthday and I told her I would be the DD… (drinking is really not my thing. I have done it a few times more when I was underage than now… but really I don’t see the point! There’s nothing wrong with drinking I just don’t do much of it… plus I can’t hold alcohol well give me a drink and half way through I’m OUT)… And surprisingly I had fun! Really it just made it fun well because my sister was having fun!

Well isn’t she just gorgeous! 🙂 I loves her! Well of course I do she’s my sister but I mean I really love her! She may not know it but she has taught me a lot! And don’t we just look a like??? It’s actually kind of scary… see her hair has been long for quite sometime and she recently just got it all cut off and donated it! And now I think she looks like a grown woman… well she did before but now there is just something different!!!

She is one of my best friends! She is the one I call for everything and really I tell her everything… she judges me and challenges me and loves me. And that okay with me. I am so glad that I get to call her not only my best friend but my sister and I am thrilled beyond all thrills (:)) that my kids have a great loving Aunt!

Happy Birthday Sara! I am glad that I got to hang out with you on your birthday and I looked forward to all the many birthdays! 🙂

 

The Man of My Life

This is my husband, my love, the man that I get to spent the rest of my life with. He is the one that I get to fall asleep with every night (really it isn’t every night… but a girl can dream!), he’s the one that i get to do life with, he’s the one that I get to make babies with, he’s the one who puts up with me….  you get the picture. But I have to say that he’s also the one I fight with the most. He’s the one that I get angry at, he’s the one I take my anger out on, he’s the one who gets to see me emotional and he’s the one that lives through it.

There have been a lot of things that we have had to go through over our almost 5 years of being together. It takes a toll on each other. You want to blame someone or be mad at someone and sometimes that someone is your spouse.

I’m a girl (of course) and for me EVERYTHING is emotional (I don’t know why… that’s just the way God made us.) And Chris he is very not emotional… he can be but mostly about his kids… so when we disagree/agrue whatever you want to call it… its very two ways. Its me being very emotional about it and him being very frank. There is absolutely nothing wrong with it. It just made me think that sometimes the people we love the most are sometimes the ones we can hurt the most too.

I try my hardest to be the best wife/mother/friend but sometimes my actions, attitudes or words don’t always convey that. At church this past week Scott asked the wives “what if instead of sending subtle messages that they aren’t good enough or they don’t measure up enough to find one simple way to show honor and love?” They thing about that question is Chris is always saying, “I’m sorry I am horrible husband” because of my attitude or words or something. And I always thought that was just him. I thought that was Chris… I thought maybe he was insecure. But after I heard Scott say that I wanted to run home and ask Chris to forgive me.

I want to be for my husband. I want to support him in everything he wants to do. I want to encourage him when he needs encouragement. I want to show him love ALL the time.

So often I forget that he is human. Some days are so miserable that when he gets home I just want to get away (most of the time I just sleep). I don’t think about him. I don’t wonder if he’s been up all night because of calls. I don’t wonder if he is tired. I just think, “oh he’s home he can take care of the kids.”

I’m not saying that any of this will change today or tomorrow. But I think I am more aware than I was last week. And I also know that I am going to try my hardest to make him more aware that I am all those things for him.

Painting

Since Caidan has been in pre-school they have painted about every week. So since I have never let my kids paint before I thought the other day was the perfect day.

I have been trying to start getting them both to start helping around the house, trying to do “crafty” things with them. But if you know my… I am not crafty! But I am trying to be. I am trying to understand what they like to do. We don’t really color because somehow it always ends up on the walls. But I am trying…. 🙂

But back to painting…. THEY HAD A BLAST! Well I knew Caidan would since he’s been doing it at school. And Kloe well she was dainty about it. It was pretty cute!

We’ve painted almost everyday. Its so great… and really not as messy as I had expected. Now I just have to find an idea to hang them up. You know to be able to switch them out often as I am sure I might have a lot of paintings in my near future! 🙂